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Meditation

A few years ago I found myself having a terrible day, I kept dwelling on the bad things that had happened until it got to the point where I just couldn’t take thinking about it any more. I’d recently read The Dharma Bums, which had given me my first real introduction to meditation, beyond typical stereotypes of monks in temples sitting on the ground and constantly saying ‘mmmmm’. I already knew by then that the general idea was to sit still, clear your mind of thoughts and just concentrate on your breath. So wanting to clear my mind, I decided to give it a try.

Every afternoon I went into the piney woods with my dogs, read, studied, meditated, in the warm winter southern sun, and came back and made supper for everybody at dusk.

I sat under the tree in the yard and looked up at the stars or closed my eyes to meditate and tried to quiet myself down back to my normal self.

The way it was described in the book made it sound so peaceful and relaxing that it helped me get past the stereotypes and think that it might be worth a shot. So when I finally found myself feeling like I just didn’t want to be thinking any more not too long after, I gave it a try.

I found that it helped, at least for a while, enough that the next day I decided to do another session. I have continued a daily practice since then. I was inspired to learn more about meditation and Buddhism in general, so I start reading up on them. One of the books I found most informative was Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind. When I’d first started meditating I’d get frustrated with myself when I was unable to maintain my focus on my breathing and would get through my allotted meditation session time only to realize that I’d spent the entire session lost in though. After reading more about meditation, including Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind, I’ve stopped being frustrated with myself for getting lost in thought, and now just hope to better maintain my focus during my next session.

I often find myself when my session time approaches thinking about other things I’d like to be doing at the time instead, then when I sit down to meditate find myself reminded why it is I do it as I relax and clear my mind, although I still struggle with thoughts popping into my head of things that I’d like to do after the session, I try to push them to the side and hopefully recall them later when I am done.

These forms are not the means of obtaining the right state of mind. To take this posture is itself to have the right state of mind. There is no need to obtain some special state of mind.

When we practice zazen our mind always follows our breathing. When we inhale, the air comes into the inner world. When we exhale, the air goes out to the outer world. The inner world is limitless, and the outer world is also limitless. We say “inner world” or “outer world,” but actually there is just one whole world. In this limitless world, our throat is like a swinging door. The air comes in and goes out like someone passing through a swinging door. If you think, “I breathe,” the “I” is extra. There is no you to say “I.” What we call “I” is just a swinging door which moves when we inhale and when we exhale. It just moves; that is all. When your mind is pure and calm enough to follow this movement, there is nothing: no “I,” no world, no mind nor body; just a swinging door.

I still find myself disappointed when I’m not able to maintain my focus for the entire session, but it doesn’t get to me like it used to, just taking the time to sit down and try is the only thing that you have absolute control over. Going just a day or two without sitting now makes sitting down to meditate, no matter what happens during the session, whether I am able to maintain my focus or find my mind wandering, is rewarding in itself.

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Language Learning

As part of my process of furthering my education I started trying to learn French again, after having taken it for years in school, and forgetting most of it. Many of us would like to learn another language, but either don’t know where to begin, or grow tired of the lessons and eventually give up. I was inspired after reading The Autobiography of Benjamin Franklin, where he recommended starting with French as a foreign language to learn.

I had begun in 1733 to study languages; I soon made myself so much a master of the French as to be able to read the books with ease. I then undertook the Italian. An acquaintance, who was also learning it, us’d often to tempt me to play chess with him. Finding this took up too much of the time I had to spare for study, I at length refus’d to play any more, unless on this condition, that the victor in every game should have a right to impose a task, either in parts of the grammar to be got by heart, or in translations, etc., which tasks the vanquish’d was to perform upon honour, before our next meeting. As we play’d pretty equally, we thus beat one another into that language. I afterwards with a little painstaking, acquir’d as much of the Spanish as to read their books also.

I have already mention’d that I had only one year’s instruction in a Latin school, and that when very young, after which I neglected that language entirely. But, when I had attained an acquaintance with the French, Italian, and Spanish, I was surpris’d to find, on looking over a Latin Testament, that I understood so much more of that language than I had imagined, which encouraged me to apply myself again to the study of it, and I met with more success, as those preceding languages had greatly smooth’d my way.

From these circumstances, I have thought that there is some inconsistency in our common mode of teaching languages. We are told that it is proper to begin first with the Latin, and, having acquir’d that, it will be more easy to attain those modern languages which are deriv’d from it; and yet we do not begin with the Greek, in order more easily to acquire the Latin. It is true that, if you can clamber and get to the top of a staircase without using the steps, you will more easily gain them in descending; but certainly, if you begin with the lowest you will with more ease ascend to the top; and I would therefore offer it to the consideration of those who superintend the education of our youth, whether, since many of those who begin with the Latin quit the same after spending some years without having made any great proficiency, and what they have learnt becomes almost useless, so that their time has been lost, it would not have been better to have begun with the French, proceeding to the Italian, etc.; for, tho’, after spending the same time, they should quit the study of languages and never arrive at the Latin, they would, however, have acquired another tongue or two, that, being in modern use, might be serviceable to them in common life.

Many people take a foreign language as a class in school, and quickly forget most of what they learn. The key to learning a language is practice, if you don’t use it consistently, you’ll quickly get rusty and forget. With Duolingo, you can practice for just a few minutes a day and consistently build your vocabulary.

After I’d decided to work towards learning a foreign language, I started using Duolingo, which turns the process of learning a language into a kind of game, earning various points and levels, it helps encourage you to make progress. After a year of consistently using the site, I set a goal for myself to read The Little Prince, in French, something I was supposed to have done in school, but didn’t actually complete. I managed to do it, although with a lot of help from Google Translator.

My current goal is to finish the entire French tree on Duolingo this year, then look for other sources where I can continue practicing French. I’ll then probably move onto the Spanish language in Duolingo, while also trying to keep up my French practice there.

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Reading Books

I was inspired to start writing this because I’ve had a large focus on reading for the past few years. Reading is great and all, it can entertain and inform, both in the form of fiction or non-fiction, but after a while, I had to ask myself, why was I doing all of this reading? The main reason being to pursue a course of life long learning; just because we are no longer in school, does not mean that we need to, or should, stop learning; so I took it upon myself to further my education.

Reading has the power to change your life, it’s just a matter of finding the right book or even just the right line in a book that really speaks to you, and gives you a new insight into a problem you have been facing, or the motivation to do something new or make a change to the way you are living your life. As Thoreau said in Walden:

It is not all books that are as dull as their readers.  There are probably words addressed to our condition exactly, which, if we could really hear and understand, would be more salutary than the morning or the spring to our lives, and possibly put a new aspect on the face of things for us.  How many a man has dated a new era in his life from the reading of a book!  The book exists for us, perchance, which will explain our miracles and reveal new ones.  The at present unutterable things we may find somewhere uttered.  These same questions that disturb and puzzle and confound us have in their turn occurred to all the wise men; not one has been omitted; and each has answered them, according to his ability, by his words and his life.

If you study reading as an activity, there are multiple levels at which one can read something at according to the classic, How to Read a Book:

  1. Elementary – Simply being able to understand the words that are on the page
  2. Inspectional – Pretty much skimming, just trying to get a basic idea of what it is about
  3. Analytical – A more active style of reading, taking notes and looking up words and references you don’t understand
  4. Syntopical – Combining a variety of sources and comparing and contrasting their various arguments to have a deep understanding of a particular topic

For most of the reading I’ve done outside of school I was stuck on the border between inspectional and analytical. I’d read every word, so not just skimming, but I wouldn’t bother to look up words I did not know, and assumed that for the most part I’d forget most of what I read, so I just hoped maybe something would stick. Eventually I realized that while there were worse things I could have been doing, for the most part, I was still wasting my time, by not making an effort to engage in, or even properly understand a book, I was merely passively consuming something that could be of a greater value to me. I could have gotten about the same from watching TV as I was getting out of the books I was reading.

So, in the past year I’ve started making a point to highlight and take note of any passages I find interesting and save them into Evernote while also looking up words and references I don’t know. I was inspired to do this thanks to an article I read by Ryan Holiday, about keeping a common place book, a collection of all of the things you come across and find noteworthy or would like to be able to quickly recall later. While admittedly he does say to actually write things down instead of using Evernote, I will type out any notes I take from a book, hoping that going over the text again, carefully, might cause it to stick in my memory better.

Now that I’ve started to build up this collection of notes I’m hoping to use it to start to push towards producing a synthesis of what I’ve read and hopefully in the process try to spread some of the ideas that have caught my attention or been spawned from something I have read. I want all of the reading that I’m doing to build towards something, beyond just keeping me entertained; what that something is, I’m not really sure yet, but I’m hoping this is a start.

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